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Thursday April 2, 2020: A journal entry:
JESUS WEPT.
A Morning mist of low cloud wrapped soft around the hills.
I read John 6 and tried to ponder on Jesus the living bread. But the mist beckoned and drew me outside, quickly enfolding me in its clammy embrace.
There was no pausing to choose direction. I headed straight up the hill blanketed in the foggy stillness, only birdcall echoing the inner certainty – she’s coming to pray.
Pray up the hill. I haven’t prayed up there for a while. I’ve prayed. But not there on God’s hill, my place of retreat.
At the summit, as cloud drifted and lifted, it was my heart that rained out its anguished plea, the cry for help with COVID19: LORD HEAR OUR PRAYER. Help us Jesus.
That was it. No wordy waffle. I perched on the rim of the damp bench, poised in grief and need; heart, mind and spirit turned to God, “Yet still do I praise you Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Living God.”
A lull then settled over me, like a mute button had been pressed to hush the turmoil of my distressed thoughts and wretched emotions concerning the plight of the world’s people. Wait. Be quiet!
Jesus wept. The words from last Sunday’s reading came to mind loud and clear.
33 When Jesus saw her crying, and the Judaeans who had come with her crying, he was deeply stirred in his spirit, and very troubled. 34 ‘Where have you laid him?’ he asked. ‘Master,’ they said, ‘come and see.’ 35 Jesus burst into tears. (John 11:33-35 NTE)
I too burst into tears, and as I wept, there at the top of the hill, I knew he was weeping with me. Weeping with all the world. Weeping for us all.
Turn to me. And I, turning, vision all awash, could see clearly, he was there. Feed my sheep. To this I shook my head, and thought, I’m no pastor. You are a minister of my word. Therefore, speak my word to others. Speak my word to one another. And suddenly understanding dawned. “You aren’t just saying this to me, are you? It’s your call to all of us: Feed your sheep. The responsibility is ours collectively.” And I pictured the scattered sheep, isolated from one another but belonging together and needing creative new ways of being church and speaking grace and hope to one another and others.
I plunged, then, down the hill, not following the worn paths but winding down the steeper slope, weaving through knee high weeds, around rocky mounds and patches of slippery flattened grass, to emerge at the wider base track.
Now is the time to forge new paths. Jesus is still the Way, the “base track” of my faith remains the same. It’s the network of familiar paths that represent how we have lived out our faith, that have fallen away, not God’s word or his kingdom, or his love.
I am thankful for this love that comes to us where we are: scattered sheep weeping in the mist of uncertainty. I’m thankful that Jesus wept and that his way isn’t set in stone. That he comes and calls us to discover a new and living way, today and tomorrow and the next day. Hallelujah! This is a new day! And the Jesus who weeps with us in our distress will renew us and lead us on beyond COVID19.
JESUS WEPT.
The autumn sun filtered a pale ray through the drifting grey. A reminder that the God who weeps, also sheds light as well as tears.
Steadfast feet on ‘the Way’
by Maria Rudolph
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My steps have held to your paths, my feet have not slipped (Psalm 17:5).
Read Psalm 17:1–9
There are many great African spirituals that sing of steadfast feet on the path of Jesus: ‘We are marching in the light of God; we are marching in the light of God …’ Or how about this one: ‘It is a great thing to love Jesus, it is a great thing to love Jesus, it is a great thing to love Jesus, walking in the light of God. Walk, walk, walk, walk, walking in the light …’ If either of these songs gets stuck in your head this Saturday, praise the Lord!
In Psalm 119:105, we read, ‘Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path.’ Psalm 121, a pilgrimage song, contains the words, ‘He will not let your foot slip – he who watches over you will not slumber … The Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.’
The first Christians were known as followers of ‘the Way’. What a great joy it is for us, too, to be followers of the Way, the Truth and the Life (John 14:6). The Apostle Paul remarked:
Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved. How, then, can they call on the one they have not believed in? And how can they believe in the one of whom they have not heard? And how can they hear without someone preaching to them? And how can they preach unless they are sent? As it is written: ‘How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news! (Romans 10:13–15)
Dear Lord, give me beautiful feet that bring the good news wherever I go. May the feet of God walk with me and his hand hold me tight wherever I go. Light of the World, illuminate your path before me so I do not stray to the right or to the left. Grant me steadfast feet on the Way. Amen.
Pastor Maria serves at St John’s Lutheran Church Perth in Western Australia. She is blessed with her pastor husband, Michael, who serves at Concordia Lutheran Church, Duncraig. With God’s help, they navigate ministry across two parishes and life at home with two beautiful primary-school-aged kids and one amazing high schooler. Pastor Maria also serves the Lutheran Church on the Commission on Theology and Inter-Church Relations.
Have mercy on me
by Maria Rudolph
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The poor man had nothing except one little ewe lamb he had bought … It shared his food, drank from his cup and even slept in his arms. It was like a daughter to him (2 Samuel 12:3).
Read 2 Samuel 12:1–14
Formerly a shepherd boy, King David is confronted with a parable about a beloved lamb being slaughtered unjustly in his darkest hour of sin. Nathan the prophet exposed his sin, adultery, deceit and murder. David would have felt the sting of this story acutely.
Psalm 51 flows out of David’s quill straight after that shocking visit from the prophet Nathan: ‘For the director of music. A psalm of David. When the prophet Nathan came to him after David had committed adultery with Bathsheba.’
We draw some of our Lutheran liturgy straight from that psalm:
Against you, you alone, have I sinned and done what is evil in your sight. Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me away from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit to sustain me. O Lord, open my lips, and my mouth will declare your praise (Psalm 51:4,10–12,15).
David was no stranger to sin, and neither are we. David knew that there was only one Good Shepherd who would make the sheep lie down in green pastures and help them not fear even in the valley of the shadow of death. Ultimately, from the line of David, Jesus would be born, only to lay down his life as the sacrificial lamb for the sins of the world.
Cling on to Jesus today. His grace and redemption are bigger than your sins. Hand each of them over to Jesus, one by one. Join David in praying Psalm 51 in repentance, asking God to have mercy on you. For the sake of Jesus, you are restored, you are redeemed, and your sins are forgiven.
Read Psalm 51 and then pray this prayer:
Thank you, merciful God! I can breathe again. You have redeemed me. You have washed me in your blood, and I have come out whiter than snow. Through the waters of baptism, your mercies are new every morning, great is your faithfulness! Thank you for forgiving and loving me. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
Pastor Maria serves at St John’s Lutheran Church Perth in Western Australia. She is blessed with her pastor husband, Michael, who serves at Concordia Lutheran Church, Duncraig. With God’s help, they navigate ministry across two parishes and life at home with two beautiful primary-school-aged kids and one amazing high schooler. Pastor Maria also serves the Lutheran Church on the Commission on Theology and Inter-Church Relations.
Restlessness
by Maria Rudolph
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One evening, David got up from his bed and walked around on the roof of the palace. From the roof, he saw a woman bathing. The woman was very beautiful (2 Samuel 11:2).
Read2 Samuel 11:1–27
King David had it all. A big palace. More than one wife. Riches. A nation at his feet. Success in battle. A good relationship with God. But somehow, David was restless.
This restlessness sent him roaming around on the roof of his palace in the middle of the night, which eventually led to adultery, deceit and murder. A slippery slope of sin begins for David. How did he go from beloved king to murderer of loyal Uriah? A mere moment of restlessness turned into a sinful thought, then into an action, and finally into deeper darkness.
All big things in our lives, and in the world, start with one small thought that turns into a small act, which then grows into a bigger and bigger thing.
This applies to bad, dark, sinful things and good, life-giving, godly things.
Paul gives great advice to the Christians in Ephesus when he says, ‘Do not give the devil a foothold’ (Ephesians 4:27). No matter how blessed we are at any given time, we are all prone to restlessness occasionally, either in real life or as we watch TV or spend time on the internet. Our eyes wander. Our minds might too. And just like that, we can find ourselves entangled in sin if we are not careful.
Paul instructs us to ‘put off [our] old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of our minds … Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you’ (Ephesians 4:22,23,32).
Loving God, make me new. Restore me and cleanse me from within. Remind me of my baptism. In my times of restlessness, let my mind safely rest in you and in your goodness. Draw my wandering eyes back to you and your glory. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
Pastor Maria serves at St John’s Lutheran Church Perth in Western Australia. She is blessed with her pastor husband, Michael, who serves at Concordia Lutheran Church, Duncraig. With God’s help, they navigate ministry across two parishes and life at home with two beautiful primary-school-aged kids and one amazing high schooler. Pastor Maria also serves the Lutheran Church on the Commission on Theology and Inter-Church Relations.