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Thursday April 2, 2020: A journal entry:
JESUS WEPT.
A Morning mist of low cloud wrapped soft around the hills.
I read John 6 and tried to ponder on Jesus the living bread. But the mist beckoned and drew me outside, quickly enfolding me in its clammy embrace.
There was no pausing to choose direction. I headed straight up the hill blanketed in the foggy stillness, only birdcall echoing the inner certainty – she’s coming to pray.
Pray up the hill. I haven’t prayed up there for a while. I’ve prayed. But not there on God’s hill, my place of retreat.
At the summit, as cloud drifted and lifted, it was my heart that rained out its anguished plea, the cry for help with COVID19: LORD HEAR OUR PRAYER. Help us Jesus.
That was it. No wordy waffle. I perched on the rim of the damp bench, poised in grief and need; heart, mind and spirit turned to God, “Yet still do I praise you Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Living God.”
A lull then settled over me, like a mute button had been pressed to hush the turmoil of my distressed thoughts and wretched emotions concerning the plight of the world’s people. Wait. Be quiet!
Jesus wept. The words from last Sunday’s reading came to mind loud and clear.
33 When Jesus saw her crying, and the Judaeans who had come with her crying, he was deeply stirred in his spirit, and very troubled. 34 ‘Where have you laid him?’ he asked. ‘Master,’ they said, ‘come and see.’ 35 Jesus burst into tears. (John 11:33-35 NTE)
I too burst into tears, and as I wept, there at the top of the hill, I knew he was weeping with me. Weeping with all the world. Weeping for us all.
Turn to me. And I, turning, vision all awash, could see clearly, he was there. Feed my sheep. To this I shook my head, and thought, I’m no pastor. You are a minister of my word. Therefore, speak my word to others. Speak my word to one another. And suddenly understanding dawned. “You aren’t just saying this to me, are you? It’s your call to all of us: Feed your sheep. The responsibility is ours collectively.” And I pictured the scattered sheep, isolated from one another but belonging together and needing creative new ways of being church and speaking grace and hope to one another and others.
I plunged, then, down the hill, not following the worn paths but winding down the steeper slope, weaving through knee high weeds, around rocky mounds and patches of slippery flattened grass, to emerge at the wider base track.
Now is the time to forge new paths. Jesus is still the Way, the “base track” of my faith remains the same. It’s the network of familiar paths that represent how we have lived out our faith, that have fallen away, not God’s word or his kingdom, or his love.
I am thankful for this love that comes to us where we are: scattered sheep weeping in the mist of uncertainty. I’m thankful that Jesus wept and that his way isn’t set in stone. That he comes and calls us to discover a new and living way, today and tomorrow and the next day. Hallelujah! This is a new day! And the Jesus who weeps with us in our distress will renew us and lead us on beyond COVID19.
JESUS WEPT.
The autumn sun filtered a pale ray through the drifting grey. A reminder that the God who weeps, also sheds light as well as tears.
A Believing Heart 29th Day in Lent (Monday) Read: Colossians 1:3-6 “…the faith and love that spring from the hope stored up for you in heaven and about which you have already heard in the true message of the gospel…” Colossians 1:5 (NIV)
I have eaten a Toblerone chocolate quite a few times. It is the chocolate nougat bar shaped in a triangle and has a mountain picture on the packet. It was only last year when my son took us to the Matterhorn in Switzerland and we took a Toblerone chocolate with us that I saw the correlation between the chocolate and the mountain. I had been told that the mountain looked the shape of the chocolate, seen pictures and even drawings (on the box). But it was only when having the mountain and the chocolate together and right in front of me that I finally saw it.
A Toblerone chocolate piece really is the shape of the Matterhorn (one of the highest mountains in the Alps and Europe). I was told about this fact. I saw pictures. I had people tell me about it. But it took a personal experience to finally believe it. We have heard about God’s love for us, we have read about Jesus’ life, death and resurrection just for us in the Bible, we have seen movies and pictures, but do you really believe all that God has told us. Paul wrote to the people in Colossae encouraging them and praying that they would understand the Gospel of Jesus and take it to their hearts.
It is so important to pray for each other now as well. We have been told about it so many times and how He has an eternal life prepared for us. I believe this and have this hope. Do you? Our belief and faith will show itself in bearing the fruits of the Holy Spirit and also by wanting to make sure everyone knows about Jesus. God wants all people to be saved and for them all to be a part of His family. Just having faith in a god is not good enough. Christianity is all about Jesus and what Christ has done for us through the cross. Universalism will not get us to heaven – only through Jesus can we be saved! The love of Jesus is for all – share this love and maybe a Toblerone!
Prayer: Lord Jesus, help me to know and experience your love and take it into my heart and life. You have given me a mission to spread the Gospel. Guide my words and actions that others will know this love. Amen.
Our Hope is Assured 5th Sunday during Lent Read: Philippians 1:3-11 “…being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” Philippians 1:6 (NIV)
“Jesus is coming back someday. Could be tomorrow, could be today! Jesus is coming back I know for the Holy Spirit told me so” This was a song I learned while on a Lutheran Youth Encounter Team in the USA. It was a fun song where the leader would choose someone to tell a story (fact or f iction) and then just at the crunch line, the song would start. I remember thinking, wow, Jesus really could come back while I am brushing my teeth or writing a devotion or spending time with family. We just don’t know, and in the Bible, it tells us that not even Jesus knows, only our Heavenly Father.
That means we need to be ready! When Jesus comes back, is He really going to take me with Him, or is He going to change His mind at the last minute? That can be a really scary thought, but Paul in the Bible verse tells us that we have this hope of eternal life given to us by the Holy Spirit and so we can be confident that God will be with us always. Thinking about the day of Christ’s return should be a joyous thought. But for many it can be scary.
Have they done enough? Have they told enough people about Jesus? “What about my family – they won’t listen to me!” Paul assures us that our hope with Jesus is assured, “all of you share in God’s grace with me.” (verse 7b) God sent His son Jesus to be a substitute for us and take all our sins and wrongdoings on Himself. He took all our burdens, uncertainties and failures to the cross with Him and washed them away with His precious blood. With Jesus doing that for us, we can have the hope of a future life in the presence of a loving Father. God wants this for you and me. Trust and believe in God and that He has your life in His arms. Be assured, God will take you to be with Him on the day of Christ Jesus!
Prayer: My dear Jesus, you have saved me through your death and rising from the dead. I know and believe in you and trust that you also have my eternal life in your hands. Amen.
You Have Been Called 28th Day in Lent (Saturday) Read: Ephesians 4:1-6 “There is one body and one Spirit, just as you were called to one hope when you were called; one Lord, one faith, one baptism; one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all.” Ephesians 4:4-6 (NIV)
Have you ever felt that God has called you to something? Was it a feeling of foreboding, or was it a feeling of excitement? The church uses the ‘calling’ process for congregations to ask a Pastor to come and be their pastor. When I was in LTC (Lutheran Teachers College) back in the 1980’s, the church also used this ‘calling’ process for teachers. I know that when people were sent to Papua New Guinea as missionaries – they were also ‘called’. Is it only ‘super-Christians’ that can be ‘called’ to serve God? No, I don’t believe that is the case. Each one of us is ‘called’ by God to work in His kingdom.
Four years ago, I felt an urging by the Spirit to start a young children’s ministry. Mainly Music started in our church, just through having a feeling that God wanted me to do something for families and children. God is calling each of us, all the time to do something special for Him. Maybe to talk to that group at work who sit off by themselves.
Maybe it is to begin a new initiative within the church. Maybe it is to put your hand up to usher, play an instrument, lead a small group, participate in a small group. Jesus called the disciples to be His followers; He is also calling you to be His follower. What is God calling you to do? In the Bible reading from Ephesians 4:1-6, Paul talks about us all to live a life worthy of being called by God. What does that look like?
We are to be humble, patient, forgiving, loving and bring peace. Sometimes this can seem like a big ask when life is just turning us all upside down with demands pulling us everywhere. But I have always found it interesting that when God wants us to do something He always makes a way for it to happen. Each of us are called to serve God where we are and He has given us the Holy Spirit to help us. It is so good to know where our hope and help come from. You have been called by God – what does this look like?
Prayer: Loving Saviour, thank you for calling me into your service. I don’t yet know how you want me to serve but open my eyes and ears to hear and see what you have in store for me. Amen